I have decided to pursue General Elementary Education certification.
This is a very ambitious undertaking, and in the short term, my “art” may suffer. Especially given the notorious hours a teacher works.
But it can’t suffer any more than it does when I’m spending my creative energy in the pursuit of making somebody else money.
Commissions are fun. Selling work is great. Illustrating books would be awesome. Corporate “Graphic Design” work though, I’m pretty darn sure is not for me. (“branding”, “marketing”, “newsletters”… just not my thing right now) In an ideal world, I would be a fabulous illustrator and everyone would throw money at me to keep doing what I want to do. But I’m not good enough, and not charismatic enough to pretend that I am.
I have felt aimless and down for a good while now, trying to be something I thought could be marketable and failing every time, because it wasn’t true to myself. But anticipating teaching makes me excited again. Working a job that is helpful to society to sustain my income, letting my art be what it becomes, without a goal of corporate success might be the equation for satisfaction.
I reserve the right to be wrong about this. I’m generally wrong about most things.